Ten years ago plus a few days this month, I found myself on a table in the St. Luke's Hospital cath lab watching, on a video monitor, the progress of a tiny plastic tube worming it's way from my groin into my heart. Attached to the end of that tube was a little metal gadget, a stent, that the doctor would implant in one of my arteries, opening blockage that had formed from too many years on the road eating three meals a day at McDonald's, Burger King, and Taco Bell.
Today when I think back on that event it's funny how unafraid I was. Maybe it was the Versed they shot me up with. I like to think it was my faith that God was watching out for me and things would be OK.
And they were. I easily recovered from my heart problem and I'm celebrating the fact that, ten years later, I'm still around. But, no matter how good things go with these procedures, you can't just forget it happened. Annual checkups and a treadmill test become part of your life and that's where I found myself yesterday morning.
When I first stepped into my cardiologist's office, the stench of cigarettes almost knocked me down. As I was filling out my paperwork, I considered asking the nurse why they allowed smoking in the office. When I finished and walked into the waiting room the stench grew stronger. Then I realized no one was smoking, it was the smell from one of the patients waiting to be seen. I don't think smokers realize how bad they smell to other people but the human nose can adapt to most any odor so after a while I didn't notice that he smelled bad either.
Later, after I had been shot with radioactivity and was on the table under the machine, the same guy was in the next room taking his stress test. There's only a curtain separating the two areas and I could plainly hear what he and the nurse practitioner were discussing: his cigarette habit. And I could not believe my ears. He admitted that he and his wife spend $500 per month on cigarettes. How tragic to hear that. Just think what $6000 a year could do in their lives if they would only give up a life threatening habit. The state of Texas raised the tax on cigarettes by $1 per pack effective January 1, 2007. But the only difference it will make is in the treasury i.e. more money for the politicians to waste. I doubt if it will stop anyone who is addicted and that's an additional tragedy.
Why do people willingly kill themselves? I know a psychologist could explain it better than I but I also know how it feels to be addicted. I too was once a smoker but, after 10 years of addiction, I quit cold turkey.
Nicotine is a powerful drug with very soothing qualities. When I smoked, there was nothing better to me than a cigarette with a cup of coffee or a cigarette after a meal. Somehow things just tasted better. It almost seemed like the highlight of the day. If I could not smoke for very long, say 3 hours or so, I would begin to have a metallic taste in my mouth, that even today when I think about it enough, I can still feel. And I didn't want to quit even though I knew how unhealthy it was. But, call it what ever you want--divine intervention or just plain luck--one day I put them down and never smoked again. I'd like to say it was easy but it wasn't. Quitting was the easy part because I had contracted a rip snorting cold and didn't want to smoke for 3 days. I figured that if I could go 3 days I could go forever. But staying quit is another animal. For a time drinking coffee or having a meal became torture and I longed for a cigarette. But 3 days became 3 weeks, 3 weeks became 3 months, 3 months became 3 years and I had not touched another one. In all that time the longing never completely went away. There was always a subtle undertone of want for another drag.
It's been a long time now since I put them down. I quit in 1970. And there's no one more adamantly against smoking than a reformed smoker. Now it disgusts me. If I get within 100 feet of a cigarette I can smell it. I have friends with whom I will not go to eat because they insist on sitting in the smoking section at restaurants. I was almost assaulted by someone in a restaurant because I insisted that the manager move him and his friend out of a non-smoking area when he lit up.
There's an old Aretha Franklin song, Killing Me Softly, that, with some changes in the lyrics, pretty much describes what tobacco and it's purveyors are doing to many in our society today:
Causing my pain with its addiction
Ruining my life with its lies
killing me softy with its smoke
killing me softly with its smoke
ruining my whole life
with its lies
killing me softly with its smoke
On average somewhat over twenty percent of Americans smoke and spend billions on cigarettes each year. What waste, what tragedy, and what good that ill spent money could do in our society.